Big Hearts, Little Hands

A Stay-at-Home Mom's Journey

Sleepless Nights

If you follow me on Facebook, then you’ll know that I’ve been having a horrible time with my sleep cycle lately. I keep trying to correct it, but my body is fighting it.

For instance, last night I went to bed “early” (around 11:00 pm). It took a bit for me to fall asleep, but I did in a reasonable amount of time. Then, next thing I know I’m waking up. I hear Lucy crying in her bedroom. I glance at the clock. It’s almost 3:00 am. I lie there for a bit, waiting to see if Dylan is going to go get her. Sadly, I’m wide awake at this point in time. When I don’t hear him get up and get her, I decide to go get her myself. I’m not sure what is up with her, but she just really wanted me. Dylan tried to hold her so I could go back to bed, but as soon as he had her, she started to scream again. She just needed mommy, I guess.

Most nights it’s like this. I go to bed, only to wake up a few hours later. I’m exhausted, but I can’t fall asleep. I don’t want to take sleeping pills all that often, not because I’m scared that I’ll get addicted to them, but that I will become dependent on them. I know they say they’re non-habit forming, but I feel that if I use them long enough to help me go to sleep, then I myself, not the drugs talking, will think that I need them to sleep, and I really don’t want to go down that road.

So here I am, almost noon, and I’ve been up since 3 am. I’m exhausted and my “Koffee Kick” I made this morning has worn off. I may have to brew a large pot of coffee to help me make it through the rest of the day. Thankfully, Dylan and I are going to relax a bit together tonight. We’re going to have supper at Mustard’s (thanks to a Groupon from my parents) and probably going to rent a movie from Redbox and play some board games.

We were going to go out and see a movie, but there wasn’t one that we both could agree on. Dylan really wanted to go see “The Last Stand”, which stars Arnold Schwarzenegger, his first major film since he was governor. I looked at it, and it looks like one of those movies which I’ll need someone else to watch first and tell me when to close my eyes. I do not do blood and gore, and ever since I was pregnant, I’m a lot more sensitive and cry at everything.

Well, I gotta run. I think I hear Lu-Bug getting up. Catch ya’ll on the flip side. 🙂

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Doctor’s Visit and Date Night

Friday we had to take Lucy to the doctor’s again. I hate going every month, but they needed to give her the second flu shot and they wanted to check her head circumference again. They had some concerns last month, but I guess they went away this month. She weighs 17 pounds and 7 ounces. She’s in the 8%, but the doctor says she looks very healthy, so she’s just small for her age. My mom said I was small too, so I’m not too worried for Lucy. I think she just has a high metabolism because she’s constantly on the move.

Saturday Dylan and I got to have a date night while my father and step-mother-in-law watched Lucy overnight. It was pretty wonderful. Yet, I always miss Lucy when she’s not around. The apartment just seems more empty. Of course, when I mentioned this to Dylan, he started to “whine” about not being fed and being tired. This caused me to roll my eyes.

Back to the date night. We went out to Fuddrucker’s for supper, as I had a coupon for a free shake (we got the Oreo shake. It was delicious). I’ve never been to Fuddrucker’s before, but I’ll probably go again. Dylan got the Inferno, which was pretty spicy, too spicy for him, and he ended up taking most of the sauce off. I got the three cheese burger, which has swiss, provolone, and cheddar. My only gripe was that the cheeses weren’t quite melted in the middle, but that’s just something minor. I like how you’re able to put your own toppings on at the toppings bar. They also have melted cheese for your fries, which I think is amazing that you don’t have to pay extra for cheesey fries.

After that, we walked around the mall for a few hours, waiting for our movie to start (in, like, 3 hours). I did end up buying some new shoes. I’ve been needing new everyday sneakers for awhile, but I’m very picky. I finally found some that I liked. Yay! I found some dress shoes I wanted (and need, as my old ones are yeeeeears old and are falling apart) but they didn’t have them in my size, so no dice on that.

We finally got to see The Hobbit, which was pretty good. I do have some gripes about it, but most of them are mainly stemming from the fact that I grew up reading the book and watching the cartoon. Overall it was a good movie in it’s own right, but when you compare it to the book, it’s almost like a different story. I dunno, maybe I’m being too critical of it, but when you take things from my childhood and change them, I get a bit miffed.

Sunday was laundry day, which we do at my mother-in-law’s house, so Dylan can work on his woodworking projects, and so we don’t have to spend a fortune on laundry. It was nice because my niece was over there, so Lucy got to spend some time with her cousin. It’s so funny to watch those two play. Kaylyn, my niece, is just over a year and can walk, so Lucy spends most of her time trying to catch up to Kaylyn. It’s also interesting to see their two personalities working together. Kaylyn is the bossier of the two, while Lucy is more laid back and just curious about everything. It’ll be interesting to see how they get along as they get older.

Well, that’s everything that’s going on in my life. I’m going to try and make some homemade mac’n’cheese for Lucy sometime this week, so we’ll see how that goes. I’ll make sure to write something about it.

What did you do this weekend? If you’ve seen The Hobbit, what did you think about it? Lemme know in the comments! 🙂

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